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I have been working and (sometimes) running a lot recently.

I find myself working out common hormone, stress and life change ailments in the duration of a run.  Sport fascinates me. Elite athletes amaze me. I’m amazed and terribly humbled by many things daily.  I’m taking this as a suggestion that my spirit is growing and the universe sees fit to continue to drop me to my knees enough to pray and say thank you.

Some people take offense to my belief that the universe, or more specifically the creator, humbles us.  I am not bothered by that. I understand the conflict. I believe for me, as a human, it is my nature to suffer to some extent. Without this challenge I would struggle with my own sense of purpose. Believe me, I’d love it if there were not the case. But, I’m not a holy creature, God or a divine one.  I’m just an aging chick with some challenges. For now this works for me. Years ago I would have felt differently I’m sure.  Years ago I blogged about dating, my father’s alcoholism, being Indian and learning.  Those things are still important, but they are not everything.

By no means do I think or believe the creator does not love me. Nor do I believe that there is an anvil waiting for me to pass under her slippery face.

I think a lot about what I want my son to know about me, to see, to believe.  I want him to learn kindness, courage, when to be brave,patience, and ways to practice kindness.  I feel like the world I live in has much kindness but could use more.  I see reactionary behaviors everyday, people making excuses for shit behavior. I have to walk away sometimes, I’m not a fucking saint. But, the collective hurt, it hurts me. I don’t know understand it. I suppose now is not the time to ponder this, but I’m sharing as an observation.

Anyhow, I digress, I just thought I’d share & say I’m still here, growing, changing, laughing. 

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I found this today & figured I should practice what I preach:
1. Start each day with a grateful heart
2. Focus on the positive aspects of energy person you encounter
3. End each day with a grateful heart
Lucy Macdonald

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Mini Quilt: Circular Applique – the purl bee







I want to make one.

I hope you’re enjoying your fall. We’ve been gifted a cute pumpkin already. I can’t wait to carve it up.

Kale has been cooking and baking like a pro. I suspect he eats more when he’s involved in the process which is a nice thing.

Be well.

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Navajo chant

Found this chant in an old book that I’d like to print & read to Kale:

I see the earth.
I am looking at her and smile because she makes me happy.
The earth, looking back at me is smiling too.
May I walk happily & lightly upon her.

What a great few weeks, I have a new niece & my nephew Braylon turns one today.

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Flag of the Navajo Nation

Image via Wikipedia

*After watching a few episodes of Ice Trucker, I’m thinking I need to add visit desolate Inuit areas of Alaska to my life goal list.
*Speaking of my life goal list, I think it would help for me to actually write that down.
Some of that list (some short-term and some long-term goals) include:

-Read every issue of National Geographic I can get my hands on. Extra points for contributing something in some way at some point.
-Pay off the MINI.
-Pay off credit cards.
-Add money to savings and LEAVE it there.
-Use at least 50% of my jewelry stash or find someone who will use it, teach them how to use the tools I have and pass the stash along. I don’t believe one can have too many hobbies, but I do believe you shouldn’t keep what you don’t use because if you’re not using it, you probably don’t need it.
-Take some textile classes.
-Success in career. Some solid indicators-increase salary, training and other opportunities. I’m starting to wonder if I’ve been selling myself short in the past and giving too much to my employer.  I’ve classically felt that I’ve walked away with less than I given and felt cheated and sad. Experience is amazing, but if I died tomorrow I wouldn’t have much security to leave my son, that’s not ok.
-Take more time for myself: exercise, make better lunches, go for walks alone, meditate, find like-minded folks to have tea/coffee with once in a while.
-Write more and submit something to a journal or write an article about something I’m passionate about.
-Learn to create embroidery designs in a pdf so that I can archive and share some of my ideas/creations.
-Make one new recipe a week.
-Learn and fluently speak Spanish. Bonus points for good reading/writing skills.
-Plant veggie and flower garden this spring.
-Teach Kale to speak, read and write Navajo.
-Teach Kale how to save money and make good decisions about money. I’ve read the Simple Dollar and have learned many useful tips that I want to test and pass along.
-Cultivate regular expressions of celebration with my niece and nephews. I’ve been irregular in sharing with them and as they’re getting bigger I want to be a more present part of their lives.
-Go on more dates with my husband. He’s one of the funniest people I know. I love it when we can drive/eat and chat. I always walk away feeling good and happy that I decided to procreate with him.
-Continue to read a few books a month, there’s something amazing about alternative prospectives.
-Continue to support other crafters/writers by purchasing craft books.

What are your goals?  Is there something you’ve started recently that you’re happy you did?

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It’s possible to have multiple favorite people.

Kale is growing up quick.  This morning I gave him his Easter basket as Michael and I were dressing.  He opened the eggs and threw the grass around.  In one egg he discovered some jelly beans (I had forgotten to remove them because I thought he’d choke on them.)  To my surprise he chomped those beans to bits and seemed to really enjoy them.  One of his new sounds is MMMM. 

Last night I made spanish rice and chicken.  When I pulled the lid off the rice he happened to be nearby and he yelped MMMM and threw his pacifier on the floor.  The rice was hot and as soon as it cooled off he gobbled it up.  He’s such a spirited and bright young fellow.  I can hardly believe how big he is and how much he’s grown.  He’s gone from a bald bean boy that cried for milk to this young toddler who loves to be outside, loves to eat, laughs proudly, pulls off his socks and has me wrapped around his little finger.

Last night going to bed I thought to myself, “the best feeling in the world is going to bed under the same roof as my boys.”  I adore Kale.  He reminds me of simple pleasures and sensate focalism.  He’s learning to sprint and takes little dashes out the door.  He eats grass and I freak out while he laughs and runs off.

There are challenges with a toddler, discipline being critical right now.  I think about having a balance between being his mother and setting good boundaries and rules for him to abide by.  He knows what no means but often chooses to continue getting into my drawers, the plants or pulling things down.  Fortunately he’s generally open to redirection and can be distracted.  It’s nice to have Michael there as he tends to be the main disciplinarian & he normally gets Kale back on track more quickly and Kale seems happy.

Kale is getting his molars and they’ve been a sore spot for our family.  Some nights he wakes up restless and tearful and wants to be carried or rocked.  Some days he’s irritable and rubs his gums and whimpers.  But, most of the time he moves along exploring and running around.  He’s easily my favorite human being to watch. 

He’s becoming quite the conversationalist and mimicks words.  I got him some flash cards with shapes and colors and hope that we can start using them while the language explosion is still in high gear. 

I also need to deliberately expose him to more Navajo.  I try to talk to him in the evenings and label things, but sometimes it feel inauthentic & I’m worried that I’m missing too much and not doing it often enough.  Maybe I need to find more creative ways for him to hear/learn our language.  I bet I could get some KTNN streaming so he can hear that fast paced rodeo style Navajo.

Other notable things:

  • Kale had his first haircut at V’s Barbershop with his dad a couple of weeks ago.  He was very calm and laughed while he got his haircut, the barber was impressed with him.  I of course got teary eyed seeing him without his baby locks.  He very much is a boy now.
  • We’re starting a garden in the backyard, we’re hoping to grow some beans, squash, melons and a few other edibles.  We’ve started the seeds inside and are going to move them outside in the upcoming weeks.  Kale had fun digging in the soil and throwing it around.  It’s going to be interesting to see how he reacts to seeing things come out of the ground.
  • He seems to really enjoy animals.  It’s a shame we can’t have more than our turtles right now.  He gets very excited about the neighbor’s cat who occasionally will let him pet her and dogs we see out in public.  I want to take him to a petting zoo, I’m sure he’d enjoy that now that he’s big enough.
  • It’s pretty warm here in Phoenix and we’ve been outside a bit more.  He loves the backyard and loves digging.  We’re also looking into getting him a sandbox so that he has a place to dig, build mud pies and castles (and probably drive me nuts with the residual laundry).
  • Kale had his first Easter, he was super cute in his little short set.  He collected all of 4 eggs in the hunt.  Michael got some good pictures of him that I’ll post on our picasa account.  I also bought a horde of plastic eggs for him to noodle around with at the house.  He’s been dragging them on the floor or against the walls and smashing them around, he seems to like the noise they make.  This morning he accidentally threw half of one in the toilet and started crying.  It was a bittersweet moment.  I rescued the egg and washed it off but his dad whisked him away and he forgot all about the egg. 

In summation-life is good for the Phoenix BC’s.  I often miss our families, but we get visits at least once a quarter and that seems to cut down the on the homesickness.


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