Category Archives: life in general

Paradise.

I have been working and (sometimes) running a lot recently.

I find myself working out common hormone, stress and life change ailments in the duration of a run.  Sport fascinates me. Elite athletes amaze me. I’m amazed and terribly humbled by many things daily.  I’m taking this as a suggestion that my spirit is growing and the universe sees fit to continue to drop me to my knees enough to pray and say thank you.

Some people take offense to my belief that the universe, or more specifically the creator, humbles us.  I am not bothered by that. I understand the conflict. I believe for me, as a human, it is my nature to suffer to some extent. Without this challenge I would struggle with my own sense of purpose. Believe me, I’d love it if there were not the case. But, I’m not a holy creature, God or a divine one.  I’m just an aging chick with some challenges. For now this works for me. Years ago I would have felt differently I’m sure.  Years ago I blogged about dating, my father’s alcoholism, being Indian and learning.  Those things are still important, but they are not everything.

By no means do I think or believe the creator does not love me. Nor do I believe that there is an anvil waiting for me to pass under her slippery face.

I think a lot about what I want my son to know about me, to see, to believe.  I want him to learn kindness, courage, when to be brave,patience, and ways to practice kindness.  I feel like the world I live in has much kindness but could use more.  I see reactionary behaviors everyday, people making excuses for shit behavior. I have to walk away sometimes, I’m not a fucking saint. But, the collective hurt, it hurts me. I don’t know understand it. I suppose now is not the time to ponder this, but I’m sharing as an observation.

Anyhow, I digress, I just thought I’d share & say I’m still here, growing, changing, laughing. 

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We moved.

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We made it back to the desert. It’s been busy and happy.

I’m nervously training for a 5k. I feel slow and tired but my body loves the exercise.

I’ve hiked Piestewa Peak with a friend.

Kale is growing.

I mean to quilt more.

I’ve considered dumping the blog because I rarely post. Most days I’d rather live my day than reflect on it.  I still have periods of missing my grandma terribly, she left this earth 2.5 years ago and the grief doesn’t get easier-you just acclimate.

I like my new job. Most of the time I love it. I hope whomever reads this is well.  🙂

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Christmas Ornament swap.

I’ve always wanted to get involved in a swap. For a while now I’ve lurked around craftland and watching all these great swaps. By chance there was an ornament swap starting so I jumped in.

I crafted 10 tree ornaments. I used green felt, embroidery thread, buttons, ric rack, some ribbon and a few odds and ends. The felt I used is made from recycled plastic bottles, I love that!  The ornaments came out pretty great.  I originally wanted to machine sew and stuff them but after a few of those I revisited my design and decided to make the rest of them flat.  Making them flat gave me a few more options in terms of decoration.  I machine stitched some parts and closed them up by hand with embroidery thread.  I bought some packing material, it’s not often that I mail ten packages. What’s fun is this swap is also international so I sent a package to Estonia. I’m hopeful that package reaches its intended owner, but to be safe I made a couple of extra trees.

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I’m excited to see what I get in exchange; it will be an exciting month with ornaments coming in the mail (for the swap you mail 10 ornaments and should get 10 back from different people).

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Dog days.

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I was on call last week for two clinics, mine & one an hour away. Fortunately it went by quickly. I’ve got a bit of paperwork to finish and I’m feeling pretty grateful that it’s over.

My mom wrote & encouraged I take care of myself, she’s worried I work too much. I probably do but work needs to be done & the boys & I have to eat. So, cheers to balance-that sometimes elusive period.

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Expanding.

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I’ve been excited all week to tinker with my new sewing machine. Today I finally tackled
an ottoman update -I’m pretty happy with the results. I got a bit of Amy Butler home fabric, took the old material apart (used that as the template) & reused the zipper/velcro. I experimented with some fancy elastic supporting stitches. It’s great to have a machine with a variety of stitches, I feel like this whole world has opened up to me. The last photo is of the ottoman.

Last week we attended (and had a great time) at Minis in the Mountains. I got travel sick during one of the runs but nobody wants that racket so I’ll just pretend it didn’t happen. I also discovered a new beer. Photos posted.

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Yay for birthdays.

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I started the day happy & busy but missing my grandma & friends; the day quickly passed & after many well wishes and dinner made by my husband & time with family I realized missing people doesn’t sour the good things. Thank you everyone. What a great day.

In case you’re wondering: I got an antique windmill, a new quilting sewing machine, some amazing cupcakes & countless other works of joy & love. What a great way to start another year. 🙂

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Balance

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I love when I stumble upon a clean, honest & inspiring blog. The posts about balance are especially well explained.

Kale is 2 and a half, balancing my desires to be a good mother & have a career that is fulfilling & provides for our family isn’t easy.

There are days I envy stay at home mothers and romanticize all the things they get to do & see. Days I wish I had chosen a less demanding career & when frustrated second guessed my ability to do all things well. Some days I don’t feel that I’ve gotten everything I wanted accomplished. Some days I feel other people want too much & offer very little in return.

Fortunately, that’s not the case most days. I’m blessed with quality time with my son & rejoice in his laughter & cherish the chalk drawing, Iron-man-pretending moments that fade like water on a farm.

I won’t even go into balancing a marriage, my husband is often the last person in our family who gets what he wants. He’s the most patient & always the first to step up when the chips are down. Without him, none of it would work.

Insert awesome paragraph about how it takes a village to raise a child & in that village you will find our families & our friends.

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Energy

Feeling run down, went to doctor yesterday & she said I’m fighting some viral thing. I can’t say I’m surprised with all the driving, work & travel recently. So I took a couple of days off & am zoning out with bad tv, naps & playing pocket legends.

Kale has been super cute & his vocabulary is exploding. What an awesome little blessing he is in my life. Now if I could get some buy in from him about potty training we’d be golden.

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